lIFe….

Hey guys, it’s been some time since my last blog update and I apologize for that. Thank you to those who have read what I’ve posted so far in the past and who have started following my blog. Loads of things of been happening that I found it better to just focus on what I had at hand.
I recently lost my challenger in Cali, he and I called everything over with. We decided that our lives were heading in directions that the other wasn’t meant to follow. As “The Fault In Our Stars” says, ” I am forever grateful for our little infinity.” He helped start me on this “Road To A Better Me” and I am continuing it even after we’ve said our farewell. My work-out partner has started her school year once again, this time as a senior, so I am left with myself which don’t get me wrong is fine, but it’s easier to go work-out when someone else is accountable as well. So, there are those changes….
Other changes include that my work needs have increased dramatically with bills and most of my co-workers in high school themselves so that means my hours are all over the place. Along with my work, have made the decision to join the United States Air force, don’t judge my decision it’s best for me. so I’m busy studying for the ASVAB and getting all that settled. So, my physical fitness has become a major thing.

I have now made it to running two miles, and I can do push-ups!!! See I have a kind of stiff wrist and it used to be hurtful to do push-ups, now I’m getting better. 🙂

The thing that I’ve learned most recently is that everything is possible in life. I mean look at the word life it has IF in it. Not only do we as individuals have to be fit enough physically but also mentally. Life can take us on physical journey’s of having something broken or wrong with our bodies, but also mental journeys of having so much happening at once that you have to be able to balance it all! I am fit physically but I am also becoming fit mentally through all that I’ve been through so far. I know I have so much more to come and I know you guys do as well. Frankly though who knows what exactly is to come in our lives. That’s why we all have to go with it and be prepared for anything, Nothing is really set in stone in any of our lives, which is why physical health is not enough guys. Mental health is just as important! Stress-less, keep your mind active, think positively, and eat well and your mental health should be alright.

Alright guys, so I hope to keep up with my blog and keep y’all posted.

~Em

The Month of June

Today with it being the first day of June and it closer to my friend coming in August I know looking my best to impress this young man is short. I was lucky enough that today was nice enough to go kayaking and then I did some laps in the pool. My work helps my arms stay in shape but everything else kind of has crashed from where it used to be. I’m excited to see this special friend of mine, but it also means I better look amazing for him. So from here on out I hope to get back into my work out routine. I really miss working out a lot, but thanks to work I’m very tired and don’t want to work out at all. But I will do this for the love in August. 

Spring Feaver

Hey guys! I would like to thank you guys for still hanging in there with me. I have been working a lot and that has been working my arms lifting heavy boxes and ice buckets. So my arms are pretty much nice, however, my stomach and everything else not so much.

I went for a run yesterday about half a mile. WOOT go me! I still don’t feel good about myself but I’m getting there. I have lost my support system, my long distance bud has totally left me high and dry and my workout partner has been having issues of her own. I’m glad summer is on it’s way so I know this workout thing has to be kicked into high gear.

I’m looking forward to finding a bathing suit that makes me feel great and also just looking great, I’m looking forward to my work out partner being out of school so we can spend more time together. Which we have planned out for beach runs and things like that which I’m excited about. I love the outdoors.

I hope you all are doing well! I know that getting off of track is easy, but keep at it. Nothing is worse then giving up on you and if you do how will you feel better??? Think of that.

xoxo

~Em

Off Track….

Hey bloggers, I have been working a hole lot and haven’t at all worked out since starting work.

With Spring being here I like many other girls and women have started looked for a new cute in style bathing suit. The other day I tried on about five suits and felt fat and ugly and just gross all around. It wasn’t at all a good feeling, I actually wanted to break down and cry in the fitting room. I know that for almost all females bathing suit shopping is a struggle…..we try to hard to look good in these suits so we feel sexy and look sexy in them too. It’s sad and disheartening because almost always no matter how good others see us in these suits we feel absolutely self conscious and gross.

I know that working out and the body I aim for is absolutely a life style and not just a one time thing….I get home from work and am so tired that I just can’t/ don’t want to do anything at all. I know that obesity runs on both sides of my family, and I don’t want to end up like that. I want to live healthy and look and feel amazing…..I have kind of lost my help from my friends and my only real motivations now are to look good so that my long distance challenger can’t take his eyes off of me, to not be unhealthy, to feel okay, to feel like I can do anything.

I need help, I need more motivation to keep going to do what I need to do, to feel how I want to feel. I will be honest any say that I just need dedication and support…….. this is such a struggle for me where I have not actually lived a healthy at all for the nineteen years I have lived. This is a big life style change for me ………. no wonder I need help……

Hope all is well with you guys

xo

~Em

Working work-outs into working

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anger, moody, outlet, scheduling, work, workout

So it’s been a long while since I last updated my blog and I’m sorry about that to those that have decided to follow my bog and take the time out of your days to read my entries. I’ve had a lot going on within the last few weeks. I did the Love Run which I found myself at the front of the group or so I thought till the race was cut short due to the fact that the course was compromised, but hey I at least did a mile and a half.

I recently got a job which I actually like and welcome the productivity of. Anyways with my job now and trying to get a workout in is a bit tricky. I am trying to get used to being on my feet all day just about and also working hard as it is… So, I haven’t worked out like I should be which is terrible seeing as I was doing very well about working-out. I have noticed that my mood recently has just been of pent up anger and needing of a good crying which I haven’t felt this much anger or need of crying like this before.

Almost every time that I see my mother I feel anger and crave for a break to be away from everything and everyone. I feel angry all the time and crave for stableness. I want complete stable warm weather, leaving behind all of my friends. I feel like I’m going insane, I’ve never felt this way before…so, it may be that because I’m not working out….

Being tired from work then trying to get enough energy to work-out is hard, my feet hurt after being on them all day and then no break at work so working-out seems impossible the days that I come home from work…….I need a stable work schedule so I can go ahead an get workouts in.

Thanks for reading guys

xo

~Em

MY work-out playlist

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alertnative, country, dance music, electronic, get going, hip-hop, hype, music, pop, punk, rap, rock, working, workout music

This is in no order seeing as I use shuffle….also, be aware that my tastes are drastic haha….

Long Live the Kids-We Are The In Crowd (WATIC)

The Best Thing (That Never Happened)- WATIC

Gold (ft Yuna) – Adventure Club

Cups-Anna Kendrick

Here’s To Never Growing Up- Avril Lavigine

Play it again (Una y Otra Vez)- Beck G

Made in America- Cimorelli

Have faith in me – A Day To Remember (ADTR)

Leave all the lights on- ADTR

This is the house that doubt built- ADTR

Like home (ft Nervo) – Nicky Romero

If I lose myself (Onerepublic)- Alesso and Calvin Harris

I Believe- Basic Vacation

This moment- Katy Perry

Replay- Zendaya

Bright lights- 30 seconds to mars

City of angels- 30 seconds to mars

do or die – 30 seconds to mars

up in the air – 30 seconds to mars

remembering sunday – all time low

see you tonight – scotty mccreery

Never be what you want – WATIC

I want crazy – Hunter Hayes

The promise – framing hanley

fool with dreams – framing hanley

if it means a lot to you – ADTR

I lived – onerepublic

kiss me slowly – parachute

forever and always – parachute

go to hell – go radio

crazy girl – eli young band

roar – katy perry

what I know – parachute

mirrors – Justin timberlake

fucking best song ever – wallpaper

happily ever after – he is we

attention – WATIC

Hawaiian roller coaster ride – lilo & stitch

she will be loved – maroon 5

daylight – maroon 5

look at me now – chris brown

on top of the world – imagine dragons

it starts tonight – gimm+icky

you had me at hello – ADTR

Club can’t handle me – flo rida and david ghuetta

Lollipop (cover) – framing hanley

demons – imagine dragons

wrecking ball – miley cyrus

jai ho! (as made famous by A.R. Raham and the Pussycat Dolls) – The Prom Queens

Everything has changed – taylor swift/ ed sheeran

all night – icona pop

hard to love – lee brice

hearts go crazy acoustic) – parachute

It goes like this – Thomas rhett

don’t let me be lonely – the band perry

can’t hold us – macklemore

don’t stop believin’ – journey

thrift store – macklemore

time of your life – obscure

royals – lorde

Jamie all over – mayday parade

timber – pitbull ft ke$ha

clarity – zedd

made in the usa – demi lovato

unconditionally – katy perry

those nights skillet

counting stars – onerepublic

cannonball – lea michele

yellow shirt – the Icarus account

live it up – Jennifer lopez ft pitbull

I do not hook up – Kelly clarkson

under control (ft hurts) – calvin harris and Alesso

we’ll be coming back – calvin harris

windows in heaven – WATIC

to love and back – this century

find you – zedd

 

seventy-seven songs in total equaling four hours and fifty-four minutes.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Joys of working out

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5k, amazing, awe, challenge, feeling good, fitness, goals, gym, improvement, looks, self, summer, summer body, things about working out, Valentines day, weight, working out, workout, workout buddies

1. The feeling of accomplishment that you even worked-out even when you didn’t want to.

2. The feeling of accomplishment that you get when you do something better or thought that you couldn’t do.

3. The awesome results you start to see thanks to the hard work you put in.

4. A better way of living.

5. Feeling better about yourself.

6. The looks on others faces when they see you in your bathing suit.

7. Meeting new people.

8. Becoming physically fit

9. Possible weight lose.

10. Being able to do the things that you never thought you’d do.

11. Finding out more about yourself.

So, recent update on my journey to a better me……my workout buddy has left me thanks to soccer conditioning, sad faces. Thought, her and I actually plan to do a 5k the 22nd for CHKD cancer research..woot! The look when I told my long distance workout challenger about me doing this, surprised look. He’s cheering me on knowing that this will be a first for me and hopefully not the last. I did about four miles yesterday and the look on his face was amazement about that too, same with my workout bud. I really can’t believe that I’ve kept this going this long!

I normally set a goal, start it, then give up at a time I’m satisfied. I am truly proud of myself and I see my body fine tuning itself. I hope that I can get to my goal summer body before I see my friends from Richmond or my challenge partner. I truly see myself changing and finding myself! I just admitted to myself and my friend that running for me has started to become a cooping mechanism for me. It really has when I think of it; my energy is released, my focus is on the task at hand and my goal, and at the end I feel even better. I think that’s what happened the other day when I went to the gym that allowed me to do four miles-I was feeling so good I kept going….I just can’t believe everything I’m doing. I’m also finding pieces of myself along this fitness journey.

Oh and Happy Valentines Day guys!!! ❤ My valentine is my handsome workout challenger… ❤

xoxo

~ Em

Recent Update

Hey guys! Well The snow melted this weekend and boy am I glad! I hit the gym again on Saturday where I decided to go ahead and work my abs and legs/butt. I did reverse crunches, and lifted 25Ibs. just for my regular arms, then did lunges using the weight and squatting all in one motion which did a toll on my quads. I then held the weight bar and did full squats.

Monday I was sore and took the day off, but I have noticed that I still have the flexibility in my feet for pointing that I had for dance. Which reminds me, I’ll have to bring out my dance games for days like that when I’m sore. I am serious, I used to do dance and acrobatics and loved it! I do miss it, though who’s not to say when people aren’t home that I do dance around. 😛

Any who, today Monday I did make it still a bit sore to the gym. Woot woot for me! I decided to do cardio and use the wonderful yoga ball seeing as I was sharing the small gym with someone. I surprisingly made a 14:38 mile which surprises me seeing as my very first mile I had done in two years was 19:10 then the first of THIS year was 17:20, and sadly my second mile of this year was uhh more then 17:20 and I was in major pain that I couldn’t even finish my mile….gotta love being a girl. So imagine my determination in trying to do 17:20 or better and my feelings when I saw 14:38! I worked with the ball after stretching out more, I was surprisingly able to go ahead and do reverse crunches using the standy things that my gym partner would use in his workout. I worked out for 40minutes today and about 30minutes Saturday.

I saw my challenge friend the other day over Skype and saw that yes he does have his arms toned and his pecs VERY toned, his muscular abdomen was avoid of a pack of any sorts which he used to have. I at least can see a beginning of that girlie muscular “V” woo woo! I know he wouldn’t change a thing about me, but I like that we kind of challenge each other to be better for each other.

I hope all you guys that read this are working towards your goal of fitness. Remember sometimes it’s good to have a challenge among your friends or special someone….

I admit I dread going to the gym, and say, “Ugh, I don’t want to workout.” Though, when I get to gym and put my up-beat music on and think of my goal and improving my life and me I find that time passes so quickly. I have always been active, but when I could be without physical education in high school I took it and decided to take other classes to advance me academically I barely did any other activities to compensate for the no movement but walking in the school. When I was younger and active I didn’t notice how much time I was active…When it was P.E. time I noticed if it was something I wasn’t into which was a lot. So, I am very surprised that I am doing this and keeping with it…. I guess a little challenge and HUGE goal was all that I needed.

Keep it up Bloggies, you can do it! Make a playlist and only put only up-beat energizing music in it.When you get to the gym set a timer of how long you want your workout to be, don’t over do it, but enough to get what you need for that day. Remember to warm-up and cool-out before and after every workout and stretch when needed once you complete a task as it will help get some of the kinks out of your muscles.

xo~Em

The Winter Storm

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difference, gym, summer, sun, warmweather, winter, workout

Recently, we have been having a winter storm here where I live, which for you creeps means that I am on the eat coast. Any ways the place I live is hard to get the gym in a foot of snow that isn’t shoveled with no snow shoes because lets be honest the south sucks with anything winterized because “this never happens”. So I have been without my gym workout ever since uhh last week, which is not cool.

I haven’t done home workouts because I will get distracted and have no privacy to do it, I’m a pretty private person. I hate working out last in front of others unless they are also working out too because then I feel like they are judging me on how I do my thing. On top of it, I want to separate gym and house work in my mind. Gym isn’t really work, it’s supposed to be fun that way I can like going where as house work is in tidiness and stuff which isn’t too much fun. 

I am looking forward to the warmer weather that way I can go running in the woods around my town with my friends, go to the beach and play football and possibly even run along the beach! I miss the sun on my skin a lot….this snow is not doing it justice. Plus, I can see my friends from out of town and the wonderful thing called Warped Tour!

Anyways, I am looking forward to the snow, as our weather man put it, being “gobbled up by the sun.” I am just dying to go running/walking in the woods again and swim. I want to expose my skin to the light and just cherish it. Haha, Yes I am a sun worshipper.

The Gym

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abs, butt, challenge, gym, mile, summer

I have had a challenge sent to me from someone I’m very close to. Well, technically it was me challenging myself to have this awesomely hot body that he wouldn’t be able to take his eyes off of when we hang out this summer.

I have hit the gym every weekday except today because of the winter storm that I would have to deal with on my way home, plus I wasn’t feeling up to par today.

My first official mile workout was timed as 17:20 not bad if I may say so. My goal is to get a nice round firm butt and the girlie ab V. I can already see improvements in both, and this will haopefully happen before summer. (Fingers crossed)